Ahhh… don’t worry about that one
I have been vague as to what my work actually entails. That is mainly because it is incredibly monotonous — good for an anal retentive person like me, bad for a blogging audience that wants a good story. I am now volunteering at SeSoBEL in Ain el-Rihane. The center is a school for children with developmental disorders from September until June. However, after June, the kids return back to their homes, and the teachers prepare for la colonie/summer camp, which begins July 22. As a result, I have not seen any of the children in person; I have seen many of their photographs. For the moment my job is to search through all the pictures SeSoBEL has taken over the school year and create a different file for each child in the center containing their photographs. There are a lot of children. There are even more photographs. I know these children better than their own mothers.
Honestly, I thought this work was pointless at the beginning. Instead of toiling away at a desk trying to memorize the names and faces of children I had never met, I could have found a different volunteer opportunity that involved actual children. Needless to say, I was pretty fed up after my first week. I carelessly plowed through pictures, figuring that the sooner I finished, the sooner I could move onto something important.
One day I stumbled upon the photo of a child with an unfamiliar face. I turned the laptop around to face the other teachers in the room (who know the children almost as well as I do). “Min hiya? Who is she?”
The teachers all turned to each other with washed looks on their faces. “Ahhh… don’t worry about that one. She’s dead now.”
The smiling, vivacious girl in the photo is named Rita. She was born with lung failure and after her few, vibrant teenage years, her lungs collapsed. And she was not the only child I saw in those photos who had recently passed away. When the teachers saw my response of horror, they tried to soothe me. “Don’t worry, habibti, it’s not uncommon here.”
I suddenly realized why my job was important. I was documenting the lives of children who didn’t have many memories to document. I imagined giving these files to the ones they loved — the ones who would want to relive any memories possible. As numerous as those photos were, they were not enough to satisfy what should have been a plentiful life for these children. But what these few photos did contain were the happiest memories their lives could provide. Remembering the rich livelihoods of those that should have had so much more — what could be more important?
P.S. — Thank you to all of those that wished me happy birthday. It was wonderful to celebrate my nineteenth in Lebanon. I cannot imagine a better way to start this year.